Looking at the calendar I see that January is almost over, and around me nothing has really changed. I might have stopped smoking, but this is something I don’t say out loud, as I don’t want to raise expectations. I might have, and it feels good. No, this was not a new-years resolution, as I’ve never been a very resolute person and I’ve never really saw the point of forcing goals into my being as a motivation for doing something that I’d fail at it anyway.
Yes, I’m a firmer believer that changes happen from the inside, at least the ones that last, that make a difference, that really shift behaviors and minds. Real changes take time and willingness to go where the reason is, where the conscious mind can overcome all the self-pity, excuses, victimization feelings, where we can give us a chance of being someone better.
No, I don’t think smoking made me a bad person, not at all. It just made me a little anxious, and fidgety. I also know that I didn’t smell very good, but hey, I have to deal with human smells around me everyday, so…
There, I’ve said it. Let’s see what happens now.
On another note, I’ve been busy trying to build a body of work where I can go and explore creative grounds.
This year looks very promising and I’m excited to see some projects taking off, and dreams coming true. Meanwhile, I have finally given up the idea of ‘finding my style’. I understand that I have many voices, I like tapping into many things, and I know this is the improv-dancer in me: go places, get off the floor, roll over, repeat.
So, my art shall reflect that and I shall not be afraid. Here is what I came up with, since the new year started and I made no resolutions. So far, it is working for me.
All these works are also posted on “Art by Tati Vice” tab.